Jan 15 2009
This is my second year homeschooling. To say this has been an interesting challenge is an understatement. So many emotions, doubts and fears have accompanied this decision and many times I have wanted to quit.
When I worked for a living, there was always an outward indication that I was doing my job well: raises, bonuses or promotions. Since I’ve been a stay-at-home mom, I’ve missed seeing the fruits of my labor. The fruits of parenting and homeschooling, to me, haven’t always manifested themselves in the here and now. I find myself crying out to the Lord, “please give me some encouragement.”
Today I received an answer to that request! As I was sitting down with my 4 year old as he did his phonics program, I was brought to tears as he read sentences on the page. This is the child that has had no education outside of the home! This is big for me. I have been able to teach him to read. I can’t believe it.
My daughter went to Pre-K and Kindergarten in private and public schools. With her, I have spent time filling in the gaps in the areas of phonics, reading, math, cursive writing and grammar. She at least had something to work with since the schools started her reading and writing.
My son was a blank canvas. I have had to start from scratch teaching him his ABC’s, numbers and handwriting. That’s scary for me. This is the foundation for everything else he will learn in the future. I don’t want to screw this up.
But God is faithful! He confirmed to me today that He has given me all that I need to fulfill this awesome call to homeschool if I refuse to give up, cave in or quit. I know that the challenges will come as well as the times when I will want to quit. However, I also know that God will never leave me and I can always count on Him to give me the encouragement I need to do what He has called me to do.